(Written on 28 march 2011 by Pradeep Bhandari)
This morning I was at airport , Kathmandu. My sister (sister in law) was flying to UK for study purposes. Everyone of us were little emotional as it was her first flight outside the country.It is said that our love for other is realized deeply in separation. As she was going away from us, our love for her was felt deeply by us due to the effect of separation.
When
I was trying to cross the gate , security person warned me to show my
passport and hence visa. At that time I remembered my last year when I
was applying for UK student visa . At that time mine was rejected for
some reason.
This morning I was at airport , Kathmandu. My sister (sister in law) was flying to UK for study purposes. Everyone of us were little emotional as it was her first flight outside the country.It is said that our love for other is realized deeply in separation. As she was going away from us, our love for her was felt deeply by us due to the effect of separation.
When
I was trying to cross the gate , security person warned me to show my
passport and hence visa. At that time I remembered my last year when I
was applying for UK student visa . At that time mine was rejected for
some reason.
So I could not cross a line to
help her. At that moment my love for her even actually diverted towards
God. I remembered Bhagavad-Gita and other scriptures where we can get the information about unlimited mercy of Supreme lord toward us who are just fallen souls. At that time I felt the existence of God and his all pervading nature. Finally I got the glimpse of significance of
God and insignificance of material lifestyle and relations. At the same
time I knew how every words of scriptures are the words of God and how
they are true actually.
My mind was drawing the
picture of someone's death to relate with this moment. Death means departure
of soul from one body to another. Journey which was taking place there was of the body which is making departures
from one place to another. In a way such departure needs previous
qualification such as passport and visa . To get visa we have to have
citizenship of the nation and to get citizenship there are certain ways
, paths and works. When passport is ready we have to apply for visa and
as we apply and if requirement is met we are granted visa. But if
documents are insufficient or mistake we will not be granted visa. Visa
may be of different countries. Some may go to developed nation while some
to another one as per their visa application and all other procedures.
Similar process takes place in the cycle of
birth and death. It is sure that we have to die one day. There is no hope that we may continue to live forever . Our action during our lifetime and even at previous time will
determine our destination of departure. Some may get the body as
heavenly persons while some may be the resident of the hell. It is the
case at actual sense. Some may get rebirth as superior species while
some may get life in the form of hateful one. The person during lifetime
may maintain relation with other in various forms. Some may be his/her
father , some may be mother, some may be husband and some may be sons
and daughter and so on.
Since I had no visa
of UK we could not cross the gate of airport and she (sister) was there alone . None of us were allowed to go inside the main gate of airport except her as only she had got visa . Law
does not say that he is father or brother or sister or other and does
not let to go there . So no alternatives were there to follow . That
means only she was allowed to go while we were not. We sadly returned to
our home and as hours went passing we somehow or other forget her.
In the same way there is nature’s law and arrangement. We maintain
various relation with one another and finally when death comes we have
to go alone. Other will be left in this world and we should go
elsewhere. No relatives can cross the line of death just like the gate of airport to associate and
help their dead relative. Somehow or other we have to walk alone. Whom
we think ours can not be ours for all times. Itt means that our love
does not exists for always. In this material world what we think is 'love'
is actually illusion. There is limitation in every way. Thus our
material existence at all is actually hopeless case and hence is not good. Our relative , friend or other can not be with us for always
and one day we have to depart in different direction. How miserable
and risky is material life We can get its clue here.
But some how or other she ( my sister in
law ) used to believe in God . She used to remember and chant Hare
Krishna when I chanted . Thus more or less she had developed some love
in God. God also loves her as already explained. ( God loves us even though we are fallen soul). We can compare our love for her and God's love for her at this point. We
love her and God also loves her but our love couldn’t cross the limit of door of
airport while God’s love crossed it. Eventhough we left her but God
actually did not leave her. Wherever she goes God also goes there together and
God is with her even within plane and will be in UK too. That means
God’s love and association can cross each and every limitation and
remains forever .
There is similarity in our life as well. When we depart from
this body , our relatives can not go with us and their love is left beyond .
Their love for us eventually is temporary or limited within narrow
boundaries . In other word their love and association is actually the
illusion. But God’s love for us can brake all the walls of such
limitation . God does not leave us even at the time of our death and he
remains forever with us . His love remains forever and is thus the real
love. God's love for us is ultimate. We may be ant or elephant , human, demon or
demigod, good or bad God will always be with us.
With this emotion I was enlightened at airport. I shared my realization with other as well. Even atheists ( some were atheists ) were touched by explanation of this realization. Really going to airport was a worth from spiritual viewpoint to me.
Finally I felt that my dedication for spiritual life got strong point to continue forever. Thanks to such unlimited
merciful God. May he provide us with his love and we be always able to
chant his holy names with love.
"HARE KRISHNA HARE KRISHNA KRISHNA KRISHNA HARE HARE
HARE RAMA HARE RAMA RAMA RAMA HARE HARE"
